Jenn Monroe is the author of In Anticipation of Grief and Something More Like Love. Her work has been published in a number of literary journals, both in print and online. She is the editor-in-chief of the literary blog Extract(s): Daily Dose of Lit and teaches at New England College and Southern New Hampshire Univeristy. She lives in New Hampshire with her husband and their daughter.
From In Anticipation of Grief
In case there are not five stages of grief but just one, and in case
she—grief I mean—is a yellow and black garden spider, hungry,
wanting me warm, heart full, blood rushing with the loss I knew
would come but could do nothing to stop. In case denial leads me
straight to her web and caught, my struggle leaves me more and more
entangled until she finds me, just off center, stuck fast among the glitter
of sun-struck dew. In case she wraps me tight for what comes next,
sinks fangs into my tender flesh, drains every ounce of what enabled
me to thrive. In case you find me hollow, left to scatter with thin threads
after her abandonment—remember, I was not always like this.